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4TH. DIMENSION OF THE KNOWLEDGE
OF ITSELF Dear fellow searcher of the truth and partner of life, tell me, Do you believe that you are your physical body?, Do you Still believe that you are your name of baptism?... Be sincere!, and tell me: Who are you?, Who are you really?, Who are you?... Searcher Friend of the useful and beautiful truth, Do You know it? You can also ask in your inside and with all the Force of your Being! of course!, ask yourself the question: [Me]: Who Am I?, Who Am I?, Who Am I?, Who is that one that speaks?, Who Am I?, Who Am I?... [You]: Who are you?, Who is that one that listens?, Who is that one that articulates the words?, Who are you?, Do you know it my friend,? Do you know who Am I?, Do You know who you are?. Who Am I?, Who Am I? Perhaps it will come to your mind the same answers that came to me... Listen to them!, perhaps it will come to you the idea of who does speak, who asks is me “so-and-so”, but this will not satisfy you; It does satisfy you?. You know that you are not your name...
Well, they call this way my physical body, my external figure, my image and every time that somebody knows me or sees me, they say: Hello so-and-so!, or if they see me passing by they say: There is so-and-so! But what this means to me? The fact that they tell me that “I am so-and-so” does not satisfy me. The “name” of the physical body does not tell me anything, don't you think so?.
Really, until here, I don't know it... I try to investigate it, and the first thing that comes to my mind is that when this physical body will fall asleep, it goes to bed and closes the eyes, quickly the senses get drowsy, then I say that I sleep!. But the following day to the dawn I say that I Am Awake!, and I say that: I have slept!. Of course, I realize that the body has slept, but:
Well, I know that I can close my eyes and go with my mind to very far away places; nevertheless, my body stays here... And that means that I am not my body; it is posible that my body is in me or that I am in my body... But I am not definitively the body. As well as to a person can have atrophied some part of the body but its body continues working... Likewise, I consider that my body can be eliminated, but I continue existing, I Continue complete!, something important happens, but:
It cannot be... Because if somebody gives me a strong blow in the head and I faint, then I say that I have lost the knowledge, and that I stopped to be aware of my body and the external world; nevertheless, there it was myself in some place, and that one is not the mind or the physical body, but then, when I being recover, it appears again the “Self”.
If I am not the body, if I am not the mind or the knowledge; then, sometimes I have the impression that I am the “Knower”, that one that knows in me. If I see a tree and immediately I say: This is a tree!; then, I consider that I am the Knowledgeable of the tree. But suddenly I realize that it is that thought here in the mind the one that says: That is a tree!, and it comes automatically from the “memory”; of course!, if I had never seen a tree, for sure I never could have recognized it. When I was a boy I did not know about many things, I began to see things totally knew, and I did not know what they were; and when somebody told me: “Look at this, it is a blender!”; then, that knowledge was filed immediately in my “memory” and then I could already remember it... But I am not that “knowledge” or the “Knowledgeable”, then...
It cannot be, because the feelings and desires constantly change. Sometimes I feel hunger and then it goes away; then I am not the hunger... When I feel cold and I shelter myself, the cold goes away, so the cold is not me... If I feel desires of seeing my girlfriend, I realize that I am not the desires, I am and the desires are... If I want to triumph in something, I am and the desire of triumphing is... If I have desires to go to the cinema, I am and the desire of going to the cinema is... But, Who is that Self?, Who is it?, Who is it?... I go to the mirror and I look at myself, I do not look at my face, but I concentrate on my look, and I see somebody... Suddenly I impress myself because that somebody does not resemble the one that I see every day in the mirror. There is somebody there, and I tell myself:
I should know it somehow... Everybody calls me by my “name”, but I surprise myself when they call me this way, because I realize that I am not that “name”; Ah! undoubtedly, I respond to that name, but I am not that... When I walk on the streets and I speak with people about this matter, I realize that they don not know who they are or who Am I? It is like waking up from a deep dream! It is a terrible situation to become conscious that nobody knows who they are!... There are people that believe that they are their names, others believe that they are their bodies, it means they identify with their physical bodies, others consider that they are their ideas, others believe that they are their emotions and others are convinced that they are their sensations… It may be that they are totally slept?. I do not know it, I have the impression that I Am not sleeping!!!. Instead, it is as if I would be waking up from a deep lethargy, because for years I have answered to this “name”, and for years I have believed that I Am my mind, my physical body and my emotions. Then suddenly I have this new state, but...
For a lot of time I believed that I am my name, until I treated my neighbors by their names and nicknames; I called them: Maria, John, Doctor, Engineer, Manager, Congressman, technician, etc., now I realize that for treating them this way they responded mechanically! Then I began to investigate, informing myself and the only thing that I got was: GET TO KNOW YOURSELF!, GET TO KNOW YOURSELF!, GET TO KNOW YOURSELF!... Well, I began to Know myself!, starting from the beginning. Firs, I accepted that I Am a “body” and started to study something about the body in action... Yes! I also did the same about the “mind” and “emotions”... But it did not convince me even this way, it did not satisfy me and I told myself: I know that there is something more! I should know it! It is fundamental!, it is very basic that I know it!,
My parents can only tell me: “You are so-and-so, our son”!. But, What have they told me?, they have not told me anything new, they only have said my name again. But sometimes I notice, I sense that behind the name and inside this body there is a “good person”, but also in another moment, I make things that are not so good; that is to say, I sometimes want to be good and I do not achieve it, and I sometimes want to be of hard character and I do not achieve it either. A part of me, that I do not know how to call it, want to do “something”, and there is another part of me that want to do “another thing”; this way, I register many “wants”. It is as if there is a multitude inside me, as if hundred of people existed inside me; they fight, each one wants something and they are permanently in conflict. One of this parts wants to be with the woman, another does not want to be with her and there is another part that thinks of another woman whom I talked to the other day. How is it possible?, All of them cannot be me!. I notice that there are many “egos” inside of me... One that wants this, another that wants that and all are contradictory and conflicting, they collide with each other; it seems that all were inside of me, in some place of my mind, my body and my emotions... They are good and bad, they make of my life what they want. How terrible!, and what a problem I am for my neighbors?. One morning I say: Today I will make an effort! Today I will make all possible for things come out well!. But then something happens, another thing inside me makes the things do not happen this way, for example: I have an excellent friend and for consideration, I always wanted to tell him that I care about him a lot and I appreciate him, but several times when we meet each other, many discussions happen and my appreciation for him disappears. How can this be possible? Who is the one in me who fights with John?; if there be in me an only one “self” that appreciates John, the correct thing would be to keep my appreciation for him; but, Who is that inside me that fights with John?... If there was only one “me” it will be correct, my objective would not digress even if John reacts badly with me, everything would be under control, and the appreciate for him will continue... I look at the mirror again and I perceive a parade of characters, I perceive in my view an “egos” parade...
There is no-one who can answer it for me either, because people that knows me say that I Am “so-and-so” and that doesn't work in me, something is wrong; it is as waking up from a terrible dream, as to open the eyes for the first time to life and realize suddenly that I am made up by this “body” and all that it contains; that is to say the whole multitude of beings that there are inside of me that struggle and fight. One wants to go to the right and the other one to the left, this way each one wants to do whatever he feels like. But suddenly I realize and I say: I and the world!, I and the people!, I here and now and John!, I say: I and the body!, I and the desire to know!... When I close my eyes and stay still, I sense that in my mind boil beings, thoughts, desires, etc.; this way I discover that is me and the mind!, me and the body!, me and the emotions!, me and the world!.
Then
suddenly I begin to understand, I begin to realize that when I
look at something that
gets
my attention,
I identify
myself with
what I see... That is to say, if I see
a girl pass by and her image absorbs my attention,
I notice
that I forget
about myself
and I
disappear of my body... It is as if I would not
exist
or that I am gone; then, I realize that this
state is like
being really “SLEEPING”,
in comparison with the other state that would
be of saying: “I
Here and Now, I am seeing so-and-so!”.
Yes! and to this I call to be AWAKE!,
Yes! to this I call to be AWAKE, and
I am not absorbed by her image, outside or
inside, I don't disappear.
There is no answer... Like you see, there is not any answer and there is no one to respond, but it is as if everything would quiet down unexpectedly before the powerful question: Who Am I? Who Am I? Who Am I?... [Night]:
But then I realize that I still don't live in a state of full Conscience because
at night when I fall asleep sometimes I “dream”,
and I realize that it is not the same thing like in the nights that I
sleep “without dreaming”; they seem
two very different things, inclusive when I sleep “without
dreaming”, I
wake up feeling much better and with plenty of energy in comparison to other days when I dream..
I believe that if I could stay in that fabulous state, in a more or less permanent way; if I could maintain the “attention” on
myself and what I do, I think, I feel or on what I observe,
it would be a DOUBLE ATTENTION! This way:
I here and now I am speaking! I am conscious of the Self and the
one that is speaking; I repeat, I am conscious of the Self and the one that is speaking. I realize that one of the most important things that there is in
life is the AWAKENING!!! Yes my brother, to WAKE
UP OF THE LETHARGY OF THE MECHANICAL LIFE, for not living
identified with all the things and without to judge them...
Then I understand what the Grand Masters said, that first it is necessary
to Wake up
and they say: “WAKE UP!!!, WATCH OVER!!!...” Now I understand
the meaning of what they said, and I realize that only the men that
are “sleeping”, those that are “unconscious”, are
those that make acts of violence, they are that make all type
of atrocities that there are in this world...
If I go to visit John and I tell myself: I will tell John that
I appreciate him a lot!, and if I could maintain that fabulous
state, then I can say
it and achieve my objective... But if I am not able to stay in that state
of AWAKE, if I arrive to where Juan is and anything that John say suddenly attracts or distracts my attention and forget
the main reason...
Then here I realize or discover that the CONSCIENCE is MEMORY!!!, Yes!,
the CONSCIENCE is MEMORY!!!, but a very
special class of MEMORY that can WAKE
ME UP! from
the “Identification” with the mechanic-state,
the body, the appetites, the desires, the thoughts, the ideas, the work,
the pleasures, etc. Yes!, this SUPER MEMORY can Wake me
up, I can take Conscience of myself and I will be separated from the case
of the body, the mind, the emotions, the desires
and all the external influences.
It is fabulous to be Conscious of what happen in my mind and
be able to choose among the thoughts that are not truthful from
the true ideas, having the possibility
to discern, having the possibility of not getting attached and identified with anything!!!.
Observing
my small world, I discover that there is “one” in
me that loves to smoke, but when I am aware of myself, I know that
I should not
do that; then, Who is that one who smokes?... It can not be me!, I can call it “habits”,
but the habits are also “egos”, and
when I am “Sleeping”,
I say: Give me a cigarette! and I smoke it and I say: I like such
brand or I like this this other brand!... Undoubtedly I notice that there
is a great difference
among the stages of being “Sleeping” and
being “Awake”, and I realize the tremendous importance that is the AWAKENING!,
definitively, I need to be able to REMIND ME OF MYSELF! many
times a day. I realize that I need one or more people that are
permanently awake... But when I am Awake and Conscious of the I Here and Now!, when I remind of myself, immediately I realize that it should be a reason for which I Am Here and Now. Yes, it should be a very important reason for my existence.
First I have to be AWAKE because being awake and aware of the I Here and Now!, when I remind
me of myself, I can Find Answers!!!...
Yes!, I can find them
inclusive inside of my mind because I am and my Mind is. I can request to
the mind as if I requested to a computer. Of course! because
my mind contains the memory files of my relationship with the Universe. OF
COURSE!.
And I see myself in the mirror and I perceive a Light and don't know who that Self is, but there is a Light, the face changes and something happens, Yes! Something very important happens, I feel that all my Being invades me with a big energy, a tremendous desire a tremendous desire of knowing: Who Am I?... And I perceive that I can get to know it, that the answer is very inside of me, that the answer is not out side, that nobody knows about me, that even I do not know about me yet, but I already can get to know about me. I am not an inferior being, I am very important for me and a being that consciously and sincerely desire to know:
All that is inside of me and can be responded if I am able to stay AWAKE!!!. Of course, if I achieve to stay awake, I can obtain Everything! And to do it, first I have to start by WANTING TO BE AWAKE, WANTING TO REMIND ME OF MYSELF!; then, I make the purpose, I make the vital purpose of REMIND ME OF MYSELF! the maximum times a day, Yes! for the maximum times a day... Then, this purpose was set this way: I Concentrated [Centered] my mind and with all the “EFFORT” of my essence and with all the “EFFORT” of what I am capable, I said: I WANT TO REMIND ME OF MYSELF!!!...
And I say it with all the force of my Being: I WANT TO REMIND ME OF MYSELF!. I say It 10, 20 or 30 times a day. I make of this the MOST IMPORTANT PURPOSE OF MY LIFE and then walking down the street, suddenly from inside of myself, it comes the MEMORY!, Yes!, suddenly it comes to me the memory and I realize that if I make this purpose during 49 days continuously and at least 7 times a day, always vehement, with a tremendous desire of wanting to remind me of myself, this way, I will obtain ANSWERS!, and I do it in places of my daily activities saying: Self! and when I say “Self”, I am identified with the Self that is Conscious and I Wake up in Me...
And later it happened... Yes!, walking down the street, making things, speaking with people, working, this way it came to me the “MEMORY” from very inside, it came as a “Tac”! here inside of me; then, when the “Tac” came! one immediately took Conscience. It is as if I were in bed and suddenly somebody woke me up then immediately I said: I Here and Now! and I saw me, I “caught” myself making such and suchathing, good or bad without identify me, being everything under the contemplation of the Being; then, I realized about the Self and what I was doing, this way, I got out of the IDENTIFICATION; FREE!, FREE!, FREE!. Little by little, my dear searching friend, I have been finding
Awake people... Because I realized that a person when is Sleeping,
lives among sleeping people and when is identified with his habits,
customs, and desires, lives with people of his same level...
Then I started knowing people that were Waking up and I discovered that
they had the same problems like me, and we be same very close friends and
our relationship was extremely useful because one woke up to the
other one in a given moment. They now are vigilant in silent action
in the whole face of the earth, DOING THE FATHER OF FATHER’S
WILL...
Yes, tomorrow doesn't exist!... Remember the famous sign: “Today
I don't trust, tomorrow I will”, and the following
day there is the same sign... My friend, Now you already know
the Truth!.
This Legacy reveals you the state of SLEEPING,
of being identified and the state of AWAKE;
it reveals you being identified with your body and being separated; you have to experience it. You have to demonstrate yourself until reaching the
certain and total conclusion that you are not your physical
body... Then
you have to realize that you are not your mind, your
thoughts, your desires or your name... And when
you get to
realize and live the experience of the I Here and Now!, of
the Who I Am?, and when you carry out the experiments in front
of the
mirror, then you will be opening the door to a NEW DIMENSION,
to a NEW COSMOS, to a NEW ORDER,
to a NEW
WORLD, to such a wide world
that your mind cannot still imagine.
Be honest, isn’t that right?, then the memory comes fast
and says: “Good Ah, look today is Thursday, I am
so-and-so, I am here”!. Then one stands
up and the low state of conscience begins, the identification
state;
then, I enter to the bathroom
and immediately I begin to take a bath, thinking the
whole
time in the bathroom about the things that I have to do
during the course of the day and so forth, years can pass this way in
automatic pilot... But if you are alert and use your
Special Memory,
you will realize that usually when we wake up in the morning,
the first thing that comes is: Who Am I? and Where Am I?. Friend, Notice the purpose of Not identifying Yourself!, Notice the purpose of observing, Yourself!. SUMMARY: Try to “REMIND YOU OF YOURSELF! and
notice the purpose of experiencing that you are not
the physical body, your
mind, your emotions, your desires, your names or your last names... You Have to
experience it vividly,
you have to get to the total conviction, and it is
not enough that
somebody tells: “No! look, you are an embodied spirit, you are
not a body”!, no, no, no, while you pass the whole
day living identified with your body and acting as if
you were your body...
That is way you have to experience it yourself, you have
to live it. Thank You. ***(Top)*** |
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